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LifeOnce Again CH 586

Author:Wise Dragon Category:Unreal Update time:2022-12-22 05:30:39

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“Unconditionally liking….”

Yuna thought back to yesterday.

She went to her clubroom after school and passionately practiced.

She did some stretches, then did some vocal exercises, and then did some acting.

She physically felt tired, but while she was acting, she forgot about the sweat on her forehead and enjoyed it.

Becoming someone other than herself was something exciting.

It was like going on an adventure.

She rewinded the clock some more.

She was in her 3rd year of middle school.

She saw herself, who was acting at the acting school.

The lessons were a bit hard to follow, but it did not change the fact that the very act of acting itself gave her excitement.

To her, acting wasnt the sweet fruit that she could get at the end of a harsh class, but the sports drink that enabled her to last the harsh class.

She went back even further to when she just entered middle school.

Bitna, who was a child model back then, tried her hand at a drama for the first time, and successfully won a role.

Yuna became interested in acting after seeing her very young sister acting on TV.

Her mother happily enrolled her in an acting school, telling her that she should try it out.

When she first went to the academy, she felt rather overwhelmed since everyone around her was already good at acting.

The people that received the so-calledcamera massage were different on a fundamental level.

She felt like an ugly duckling amidst a group of elegant cranes.

Did acting not suit her after all - she had such negative thoughts when she received her first lesson.

Indeed, she was overwhelmed and couldnt do anything.

She was the only one who lacked basic voicing and pronunciation skills and had to receive personal lessons from the instructor.

Her first lesson was terrible.

She even had the feeling that she couldnt do anything there.

When she had almost given up, the instructor told her to try some simple acting.

As she hadnt learned anything yet back then, the wordacting seemed like a big wall to her.

Her peers next to her all displayed good acting one after the other.

They became angry, smiled, and cried.

Just when she felt deeply impressed by them, it became her turn.

Her head turned blank since she didnt know what to do.

As she stood there frozen like a statue, the instructor told her that it was okay and told her to express anything she wanted.

At that moment, a clothes hanger entered her eyes and Yuna imitated that clothes hanger without thinking.

She stood upright, bent her arms into an L shape and pressed her fingers together.

She saw her own figure reflected on the wall and she found herself really freaky.

She thought that she was going to get laughed at, but no one laughed at her.

In fact, what she received was a compliment.

Yuna was curious.

The performance she had just shown was too different from the acting that her peers had shown.

It was nothing more than an infantile form of imitation, so she couldnt understand why other people would say that she was good.

The instructor smiled gently at her and replied to her:

That.

That is what acting was about.

The moment she heard those words, Yunas body shook, without knowing why.

Acting, which existed in another world and was something that she could only watch from afar, felt like it was right in front of her now.

Ever since that day, Yuna became engrossed in acting.

Expressing something other than herself - that kind of excitement was what she liked.

Until now, Yuna had never once felt afraid of acting nor felt that it was hard to do.

She may have thought that a technical aspect of acting might be difficult, but she never felt burdened by acting itself.

To her, acting was a refuge, a playground always filled with new and fun things.

Being afraid of going to such a place She couldnt imagine such a thing.

“Learning to act is definitely a difficult thing.

There were many times when it was hard, but Ive never felt afraid or like I was afraid of acting even once.”

“If you think that, then theres no problem.

You dont need to hesitate and can just keep doing things the way youve been doing until now.

The path youve been treading on is very solid and must be heading in the right direction,” said Maru, who sat in front of her.

They were words of encouragement, but the same words were echoing inside Yunas head.

Is unconditionally liking something really liking something When she thought about it simply, there was no need to hesitate.

She unconditionally liked it because there was nothing to hate about it, right

Yuna shook her head.

With years of practice and effort, her skills had definitely improved.

She knew that she had improved dramatically when she thought back to how she was during her 1st year of middle school.

However, as the years passed by, her technical skills may have improved, but the instructor became even more strict.

The instructor that used to compliment her for her improvement now started pointing out the dullness in her emotional expression.

The way you express it is not bad, but the appeal is lacking - that was what the instructor said about her.

It was around that time that she saw Marus acting.

That was the first time Yuna felt dazed by an act from someone around her age.

The words that she lacked appeal became a mallet and smacked her head.

The moment she saw Marus acting, she realized that what he was showing her was theappeal that she lacked.

She thought that she wanted to be like that as she continued with her acting.

Acting was still enjoyable and she felt happy whenever she acted, but what increased was only her technical skill, while the emotional expression that couldnt be formally verified did not improve at all.

If she was doing nothing wrong, then shouldnt she be improving As time passed, the instructors opinion of her became worse by the day, and recently, she even felt hopeless.

She wanted to know how this person named Han Maru could act like that.

The explanation from the adults didnt feel real to her, and always felt distant, making it hard for her to accept.

She also felt like she would have an easier time understanding if someone around her age told her about his own experiences.

However, the result of the conversation made Yuna feel more confused than ever.

‘Afraid of acting

Yuna had a look at Maru s face.

He was talking to Bitna with a smile on his face.

When she looked at his face, she was reminded of his acting.

The person that displayed such chill-inducing acts was afraid of acting They say a genius cannot win against one that puts in the effort, and that one that puts in effort cannot win against one that enjoys.

Isnt enjoying something the same as liking it Yuna couldnt understand how it was possible to like something and be good at it when he was afraid of it.

“Is unconditionally liking something a bad thing after all”

“I told you its not.

Its more likely that Im wrong.

If you think of something as infinitely good, thats an incredible thing.

If you truly never felt afraid of acting, then there are no problems at all.

In fact, it would be me who would be envious of you.”

“But my performances dont have the attraction that yours does.”

“Thats probably because the roles I played were impactful ones.

I dont have any presence in the drama, right My acting is nothing special, so theres no need to worry about it.”

“In the drama, youre so natural that you feel flawless.

When I perform an ordinary life act, I always get told that Im bland.

You really are different from me.”

“Im happy that you see me so highly, but I wonder if thats whats troubling you instead.

You acted until now without any worries at all, didnt you”

“I did have my worries.

I just didnt mind them that much since I enjoy myself a lot while Im acting.

Now, however, I have a dream to debut as a proper actress.

There wont be a problem if Im just acting as a hobby, but I think I need to change if I want to become a pro.”

At that moment, Maru sighed and turned his eyes towards the counter.

Maru spoke for the first time without looking her in the eyes.

“I do not know a lot about you.

Thats why I can only tell you basic and fundamental things.

I think I have a vague grasp of what youre worried about, but I cant answer you precisely because I only have a vague grasp.”

“Im fine with anything.

I just want to hear your story.”

“Will my advice have a chance to change you”

“Yes.

I want to act just like you.”

“Then thats all the more reason I cant tell you anything.”

“Why is that”

“Its because I dont want you to resent me.

If my words influence you, and you end up failing later on in life, you will remember this moment.

You might swear at me.

I dont want to get sworn at in a place I dont know.”

Yuna widened her eyes.

“I wont do something like that.”

“You might.”

“Im not someone who would do that.”

“I cant be sure that you arent someone who would do that.”

“I just wanted to hear your opinions though….”

“Why dont you look for someone thats much better than me Someone who can take responsibility for their words, that is.

You said you go to an acting school right Asking the teacher there is also one way.”

“The instructors advice doesnt really feel that real.”

“How about your seniors at school then”

“No.”

“Why not”

Yuna bit her lower lip before speaking,

“You were the only one.

You were the only one I was deeply impressed by.

Of course, I am deeply impressed by some adults acting on TV, but you were the first high school student who impressed me that much.

Thats why I tried to meet you even when I had to end up lying to a senior I really liked.

I thought that you would tell me something different.”

“I have to apologize, but Im no one special.

I just happened to grab some lucky chances, and I managed to make use of them.”

Yuna felt her chest tightening.

Marus words were right.

Someone he had seen for the first time was asking him for an answer with a serious face, so it would be even stranger if he replied properly.

However, she felt frustrated and sad when she thought about how she wouldnt be able to get any hints from the meeting she looked forward to so much.

This is not right - Yuna forced herself to smile.

She couldnt inconvenience him here.

After all, she had to thank him for meeting her in the first place.

“Ill keep doing my best like this then.

Since its what I like to do, I will definitely change if I keep doing it.

I learned a lot from meeting you today, seonbae-nim.

Thank you.”

She decided to let him go and hoped that Maru didnt feel bad for coming today.

She didnt want to be hated by Maru.

It would be horrible if the actor who made her excited looked at her with contempt.

Just as she was about to stand up,

“Oppa, dont hate unni,” Bitna said.

Yuna looked at Bitna in surprise.

“I dont hate your big sister.”

“Then why arent you answering her”

“Because its not something I can solve.”

“Cant you just tell her something Unni really looked forward to meeting you today, like, thiiiis much.”

Bitna created a big circle with her arms.

Yuna grabbed Bitnas hands.

“Bitna, unni is fine.

Im completely fine.”

“Youre lying.

Youre about to cry.”

“No, Im not.”

“No, you look sad.”

Large teardrops appeared on Bitnas face before she started crying.

Yuna quickly embraced Bitna.

“Sorry, Bitna, your sister was in the wrong.”

When she patted Bitnas back, Bitna stopped crying.

She never thought that the docile girl would cry all of a sudden.

Yuna felt her heart aching.

It felt like everything was her fault.

Just as she was wiping Bitnas tears with her palms, she heard a voice.

“If I assume that youre in a similar situation as me, I can tell you a few things.”

“Seonbae-nim”

“I feel bad now since I feel like Bitna will hate me if I go just like this.

Im weak against children.

Especially against good girls like Bitna.”

Maru brushed his hair upwards with his hands before speaking,

“If youre okay with regretting after hearing my story, I can talk to you for another hour or so.

However, theres no customer service after that.

Even if what I tell you sets you off-track, the only thing I can do is to hear you swear at me.”

“I dont care.

I want to listen to you.”

Yuna had a look at Btina.

Bitna was smiling brightly as she looked at Maru.

Maru also looked at Bitna as though he had lost.

“But seonbae-nim.

What changed your mind so suddenly”

“I told you.

I dont want to be hated by Bitna.”

“Is that really it”

“Thats really it.

I find it strange too.

I usually never step into other peoples business when they arent related to me.

For some reason though, I cant win against Bitnas eyes.

Perhaps this is what a father with a daughter feels like.”

After saying those words, Maru frowned and didnt speak for a while for some reason.

He seemed to be in deep thought as he though he was going through his memories before he eventually sighed.

“Not that I would know what a father with a daughter would feel like.”

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